Maudlin

Today started off like any other day, and up until 8pm or so it really was. For some reason I can’t grasp, though, I’ve been feeling maudlin all evening. I don’t know what’s going on in my own head sometimes. I think it may be the fact that all my friends seem to have moved onto the Next Stage of their lives – bought houses, got married, had kids, whatever – while I feel like I’m stuck in a rut. I’m feeling kind of like I’ve been doing the same thing in different places for over a decade. And I don’t mean work; I love what I do and wouldn’t change anything in that regard. No, it’s really my life outside of work. For a long time I’ve been letting it pass me by, and I’m so set in my ways that I don’t even know how to shake things up any more.

God, when did I turn into such an emo prat?